thought long and hard about the kind of person I want to be in this temporary and chaotic world. Life often feels like a constant rush — achievements, expectations, and unspoken comparisons flashing before my eyes (especially when I stay on internet for too long - I cant help it).
In the quiet moments, I found myself asking: Am I doing enough? Am I becoming the person I was meant to be?
I keep questioning myself endlessly in my mind. I am married, so should my next step be motherhood? Is that the natural path I am expected to take, or is it something my heart truly wants? Then comes the part of me tied to my work. My career feels a little stagnant lately, and I can’t help but wonder: is this just a passing phase, or a sign that I should pivot my focus entirely? Should I take this time as a chance to dream differently, to walk a new road I hadn’t considered before?
And yet, with every question I ask myself, the answers always feel incomplete. The truth is, no matter how much I analyze and plan, I will never be able to fully predict where each path will take me. That realization brings me back to the core of my faith: What is Allah trying to tell me through these uncertainties?
Maybe the stillness in my career is a nudge to slow down and reflect.
Maybe the lingering thought of motherhood is a reminder of the gift of nurturing that lies within me.
Or maybe, --- it’s neither.
Maybe it’s simply Allah’s way of teaching me patience, trust, and surrender — lessons I wouldn’t learn if life was always straightforward.
In the end, the real question isn’t just about who I want to be, but who Allah is shaping me to become.
I have always been the kind of person who knows what I want and where I’m going. Most of the time, I set a goal and work hard until I get there. But this year feels different. For the first time, the path isn’t so clear. I find myself pausing, questioning, and most of the time feeling a little lost.
This season of uncertainty has taught me something new. It’s reminding me that life isn’t always about control or planning every step. Instead, it’s about trusting Allah’s plan, even when I can’t see the full picture.